A Letter to God..

Lately, Ezra has been talking about God & Jesus a lot. We really try to cultivate a lifestyle with Him in the center. “Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.” -Proverbs 22:6. Throughout the day God is mentioned, we let Ezra lead in prayer at night, etc. Just about every night it is the same, somewhere along these lines… 

“God help my bumpy.

God help momma.

God help dada, sissy, baby, grandy, paw paw and poofy.

God help my aunt Chris.

God help my dinosaur.

God help Ezra.

God help my Dino noodles.

God help the baby deer.

God take the monsters away”. Ezra says his peace then goes to sleep, well after asking for water 4 more times. lol

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But tonight he wanted God. He kept saying “I need God here” “I need Him in our Airstream.” We asked him, “Well where is God?” He then said, “in my heart”. We said “Exactly He’s in your heart, so that means He is always with you”. Then he felt everyones chest in the bed to make sure Jesus + God were present in everyone’s hearts. He was satisfied and went to sleep.

As we laid there, I totally understood what he was yearning for, because I yearn for the same thing. I need to hear God, I need to know that He is right here with me. Most days I'm too busy to feel His presence. Sometimes I need to hear from Him in that exact moment & all I hear are crickets. But, I have to lay my hand on my chest & feel my heart beating. Then I know that He is right here with me always. I have to trust Him in these quiet seasons that He hasn’t left, that He hasn’t jumped shipped. But, just like my toddler I have to call out to God + have peace that He’s here and drift off to sleep. It’s amazing the lessons our kids are always teaching us. Then I read my devotional tonight + it said this..

“Receive My Peace. It is My continual gift to you. The best way to receive this gift is to sit quietly in My Presence, trusting Me in every area of your life. Quietness and trust accomplish far more than you can imagine: not only in you, but also on earth and in heaven. When you trust Me in a given area, you release that problem or person into My care.

Spending time alone with Me can be a difficult discipline because it goes against the activity addiction of this age. You may appear to be doing nothing, but actually you are participating in battle going on within spiritual realms. You are waging war- not with the weapons of the world, but with heavenly weapons, which have divine power to demolish strong-holds. Living close to Me is a sure defense against evil.” Jesus Calling Devo

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I wanted to share what I journaled tonight writing to God. Maybe you’re going through a similar season & this prayer can work for you too. I never thought I’d be sharing what I wrote in my journal, but here it goes…

“What’s up God,

Long time no talk. I feel like I’ve been going through the motions lately. Rushing from one thing to the next, spending way too much time chasing after things on my to do list. God, am I chasing something that isn’t meant to be chased? Am I taking some else’s dream + path and running with it? God, I want what you have for ME. I don’t want what you have for someone else. Strip me of desires that aren’t Your will. Fill me with dreams & desires that are from You. God, I want the best in life, but I only want it if you’re giving it to me. Thank you for giving me the ability to dream. Help mold my dreams into your dreams. I don’t mind the work, but I need to know I’m running the race You have for me. I need to know I’m going in the right direction. I’m tired of chasing this dream alone. Go ahead of me, if this is my flesh & not your desire close the door completely. If this is just the enemy trying to stir chaos because it is your will for my life, calm the chaos. I want to follow your steps. I want to hear your voice. Help me to not be cluttered with worldly things. Help me to have a clear heart & open mind. Reveal to us your next phase for us. I’m lost without you. I need you. I love you.

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen. “

XO Colleen


Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27 ESV


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